Thesis Meeting, Day Two
First thing out of her mouth as I hand her my almost-completely-new introduction:
(in a harsh tone) “You know, I don’t usually meet every week and go through drafts like this. I know it helps keep you on track, but I really don’t have time to be re-reading things we’ve discussed. It would be better if you could just come in and be able to point me to the things you’ve changed or are concerned about.”
In my head: But… this is almost all new… Last week you told me it was crap… I’m concerned about it all…
Then she started reading and must have felt bad about how she said that so she clarified what she meant a little and tried to be nicer. That’s when I got to say the bit about how it was virtually all new and basically just fumbled a lot of words and tried not to cry.
After that it got a little better. She had problems with the organization and a few terms that I didn’t define clearly enough, but overall she said the content was much better and so on. The start was pretty rough, though. She’s got such a way of making you feel like crap in an instant. At least now I know a little more about how she wants these meetings to go. I honestly have no idea how the whole process works… Am I supposed to be sharing things with all my readers or just her? When do I really get into the revision of it? Gah! I should’ve asked these questions sooner.
Right now I just have an overwhelming sense of anxiety that I can’t do this. And that every meeting is going to go like that. Objectively I know I can pull it off and it’ll go well. She was very encouraging at the end and frankly, she wouldn’t lie—she’d just tell me if it was hopeless. I just didn’t expect this to be so emotionally taxing.
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idratherbesailing said:
I’m sorry! *hugs* I have been totally avoiding my thesis director. I meet him next week with my first chapter. (I am saving the intro for last)
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